1.Open Your Eyes
As i walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of people's feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof overhead
A crackhead asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything
For granted like you do
A boy just 13 on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
And your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
You turn away
As i walk along the streets
Soaking up the acid rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
2.Pressure
I just need this to be all right
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this i come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
Necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me i'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight i think i am going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As i wait for this valium to slowly kick in
3.Fade
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too
Much to conceive
I only know that i can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now i step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how i felt
I just stuffed it down
Now i'm older and i feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that i have made
So where were you
When all this i was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do
4.It's Been Awhile
it's been a while
Since i could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since i first saw you
It's been a while
Since i could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since i could call you
And everything i can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that i've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means
It's been a while
Since i could say
That i wasn't addicted
It's been a while
Since i could say
I loved myself as well and...
It's been a while
Since i've gone and fucked things up
Just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you
And everything i can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that i've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again
Why must i feel this way？
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then i go an fuck things up again
It's been a while
Since i could...
Look at myself straight
It's been a while
Since i said i'm sorry
It's been a while
Since i've seen the way
The candles light your face
It's been a while
But i can still
Remember just the way you taste
Everything i can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To me... i know this pain
Can i blame this on my father？
He did the best he could for me
It's been a while
Since i could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since i said i'm sorry
5.Change
If ever you had said to me before
That i would live this life that i am
Living now i guess it's all so strange
To feel the way i do inside but
Have so much that i could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
How do i feel？ i've been here before,
I've felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this. keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for everyone of you that's ever
Done me wrong. i need to justify the reasons
For the way i'm living. i guess i can't cause
I don't feel like i deserve it
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding i can't take away
The shame i feel, forgive me
6.Can't Believe
Respect, respect what is found
Respect should abound
Respect everything that you leave
I can't believe
Can't believe
And i, i can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, i, i want to flee
I want to flee from everything
In front of me i
Can't believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything that you think i should be
I stand, never again, never again
Can't believe
7.Epiphany
your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
So i speak to you in riddles
'cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'cause i can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
Or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
Yet i always try to hide
'cause i talk to you like children,
Though i don't know how i feel
But i know i'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
8.Suffer
suffer
The more you see the more you do
The television's feeding you. with what
You want to hear, anger and fear, because you suffer
The hate you feel won't go away you're all programmed to
Feel this way to live another day within a world
That loves to suffer
And then i come to find everything's o.k. seen this all
Before but that was yesterday. i try to walk right
Through the messes that i've made just let me enjoy
The life here that i've made
I've tried to give it all to you. can't take anymore to do
With this. it hurts inside. i know why i hide 'cause
I suffer
I tried to keep it all inside didn't leave me too much
Pride forced it all down inside forced myself to make
Me suffer
And then i come to find everything's o.k. seen this all
Before but that was yesterday. i try to walk right
Through the messes that i've made just let me enjoy
The life here that i've made
And then i come to find
9.Warm Safe Place
another day inside my world
Im married to you and this road
This road that do not let me sleep
So theres no way to escape these demons i am forced to keep
Then i find, you here
Thru your eyes everythings clear
And im home inside your arms
But im alone for now
I mean the best with what i say
It doesnt always sound that way
I never learned to work things out
Cuz in my family all we ever seemed to do is shout
Then i find, you here
Thru your eyes everythings clear
And im home inside your arms
But im alone for now
And when i try to sleep
The drugs i take are killing me
I think of you to ease my pain
But youre so far
And now its time to say goodbye
I love you baby, please dont cry
Then i find, you here
Thru your eyes everythings clear
And im home inside your arms
But im alone for now
10.For You
to my mother to my father
It's your son or it's your daughter
Are my screams loud enough for
You to hear me？ should i turn this up for you？
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere,
Gets up nowhere way too fast.
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decision
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere,
Gets up nowhere way too fast.
All your insults and your curses
Make me feel like i'm not a person.
And i feel like i am nothing.
But you made me so do something.
Cause i'm fucked up because you are
I need attention, attention you couldn't give.
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere,
Gets up nowhere way too fast.
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere,
Gets up nowhere way too fast.
11.Outside
and you bring me to my knees, again
All this time that i could beg you please, in vain
All the times that i felt insecure, for you
And i leave my burdens at the door
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'cause inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All this time that i felt like this wont end
It's for you
And i taste what i could never have
Was from you
All those times that i tried
My intentions
Full of pride
And i waste more time than anyone
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Cause inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times that i cried
All this wastin
It's all inside
And i feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And i lie here in bed
All alone
I cant mend but i feel
Tomorrow will be okay
I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside you're ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
12.Waste
waste
Your mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I have no answers cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
How could you paint this picture？
Was life as bad as it should seem？
That there were no more options for you？
I can't explain how i feel？
I've been there many times before？
I'm tastinthe cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words they can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
Did daddy not love you？
Or did he love you just too much？
Did he control you？
Did he live through you at your cost？
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own？
Well fuck them
And fuck her
And fuck him
And fuck you
For not having the strength in your heart to pull through
I've had faith
I have failed
I've fucked up
I've had plans
Doesn't mean i should take my life with my own hands
But these words
They can't replace
The life you
The life you waste
But these words
They don't replace
The life you
The life you waste
13.Take It
i feel like this won't go away
No matter how hard i try
To squeeze my eyes shut
So i can't see the pain
In you this pain in me - in me
But everything that i can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
I know that i am really not here
To represent what i am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do
But everything that i can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause i once felt that way
Nothing i could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away
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